the past few days was kinda annoying for me as i actually pressing charges against some grp of ppl who actually fabricated some unpleasant stories and i hope police will charge them for defamation and clean their nice asses and go to jail... not that im a saint or someone who is perfect cos i only believe that God alone is perfect and even if i had a bad past, im moving on in life and continue to look forward to change myself for the better and unlike these ppl who detested me to a core that they wanna make my life miserable, they wont get to do it cos im still standing tall and with friends who are actually giving me good advices on how to face such situations, im very blessed that such ppl are still around and i admit i have trust issues, still somehow i know i can trust them for they are helping me, not harming me in any other ways that those ppl who detested me who tried to.
work life so far so good, cos im still learning on alot of things in this industry and i hope that i nv disappoint anyone (yet) cos i always have no faith in myself for doing things that ppl believes that i can succeed and prove to ppl im not my past anymore.... and i believe that all others who has a past can forget abt it and move on without caring abt how other's view is on them:)
somehow, when things happen, they say its for a reason. But can u actually ask yourself why it happens and what's the reason? u cant cos u are not a psychic... just like me and everyone, all of us are humans and there's alot of things somehow we always wish it hadnt happen at all... if a person were to ask me if i can turn back time, where it will be that i wish to turn? i would answer that person," it will be the time where im 16." why? cos i wasnt strong enough back then to stand on my two feet and walk through all obstacles and only want to find a short cut solution just to avoid facing long term learning in coping my problems.... but after so many years of time i wasted, i had enough and i wanna take a serious change in my life and be stable... im going to be turning 21 in just 4 months time and if im still not mature yet and learn how to think, my life in the future can be wasted down in the drain like a rubbish from the sewage pipe....
anywa, i shall pen off for now as my mind has been drifted away into the wonderland that i always hope to be real so i wont have worries to think abt.
the thinker,
notalilboi
